it's been a difficult
just when i thought things were going fine, everything decided to make a giant U-turn.
Monster Hand jumper, c/o The Okkult Store / ducky earrings / leather panelled skirt, NastyGal / checkered watch, The Style Mafia
the sweater that i'm wearing is dope af. it's loud, graphic, and neon coloured on BLACK. it's like you can go all out quirky or use it as an excuse to wear ridiculous accessories, like blue-eyed rubber ducks with blonde wigs on them.
i actually have ramen bowl earrings that have yet to make their debut, but i haven't had the chance to wear an outfit worthy of their amazingness yet.
anyway, back to The Okkult Store. this online shop has legit branding. one might pass it off as just another teen venture, but once you see the effort put into the site, its images and everything you'd be as impressed as i am!
a few of the pieces that are really cute- the GRIND pinafore, tho
head down to their site now!
LIE Tomorrow’s Whiteness Dress, MeDusa round clutch, By Invite Only quartz necklace
i somehow got featured in ModaMag in a collaboration with Gnossem. if you haven't heard of that site, check it out- it's pretty cool because of the designers they carry. you can read the interview HERE.
Cornelyus was very kind and patient with me especially with my awkwardness at posing. i haven't had a proper outfit shoot in months and so was slightly lost at how to carry myself. guess the photos turned out pretty good thanks to his talent!
i've been lost to the online life for more than a month (actually even more, the past couple of posts were just fillers) and a lot of things have been happening in my life. i guess i've lost most of my readers by now but it's nice to come back to this place and just talk about nothing in particular.
life has been an uphill battle but at this very moment, i can say that i've become a much more realistic person about almost every aspect of life. there's been a lot of self reflecting, self sacrifice, and loss of my own self. i'm no longer the person i used to be while being more of the person that i am.
it's been difficult, but i think i'll survive.
I WAS DRAWN TO ALL THE WRONG THINGS: I LIKED TO DRINK, I WAS LAZY, I DIDN'T HAVE A GOD, POLITICS, IDEAS, IDEALS. I WAS SETTLED INTO NOTHINGNESS; A KIND OF NON-BEING, AND I ACCEPTED IT. I DIDN’T MAKE FOR AN INTERESTING PERSON. I DIDN’T WANT TO BE INTERESTING, IT WAS TOO HARD. WHAT I REALLY WANTED WAS ONLY A SOFT, HAZY SPACE TO LIVE IN, AND TO BE LEFT ALONE.
Japanese crane embroidered jacket / leather baseball cap / heavy metal belt / black crop + shorts
basically my uniform every day in school now: crop top, shorts, and one of my jackets. i've been too busy since four weeks ago with the preparation of next year's orientation camp and my own schoolwork.
yesterday my soul and body decided to shut down for fourteen hours of lucid dreaming. it was an insane and indescribable experience and i'm not even sure if i imagined it all.